
Backlash 101.
Vile deeds done by vile persons often see a crooked light of day.
Persons who inflict trauma on other persons are usually so manipulative and versed in brainwashing their victims they set up a faux context that protects them from accountability and responsibility, helps them avoid making amends, or facing their consequences instead of creating scapegoats and expendable persons within their system.
Manufacturing a fake, cosmetic front that deflects the public with an almost polar-opposite of their reality such that no one could possibly, even remotely believe the truthteller who exposes their bad acts.
Or, manipulating their audience with the power of money and the power of notoriety such that others want to ride on their tailcoats, keep the gold key to their inner sanctums so earnestly they are also willing to go blind and deaf and dumb and to align against the scapegoats.
The other day in the car on the way to a meeting, the local talk – FM News KXL 101 radio in Portland, Oregon was playing yet another “Us vs. Them Conspiracy Theory/Fear/Paranoia” commercial from my brother Leif Hansen of Leif’s Auto Collision Centers in the Portland-Vancouver area.
From my previous excerpts of the book I am publishing on this, remember, Leif Hansen is the bully boy from our family home. Still, a very little boy with a massive chip on his shoulder the size of Montana. Same Leif who got into fist fights with our father that blew out the dining table and chairs. Set his cocaine-runner boat on fire to escape a Coast Guard search in Kaneohe Bay, Hawaii. Spent much of the early years with his young family in Portland being called back to Hawaii to make Court and Probation dates in Honolulu for drunk driving arrests, his wife Carol confided in me in the early 1990’s.
The same Leif who grew pot in our bathroom and stood laughing and watching with his buddies as his pal David took me into Leif’s twin bed with the orange and brown striped sheets and told me, a young pre-pubescent girl who only wanted to be a pure chaste Mormon girl, and told me that his sex abuse was what married people do, and this was our marriage bed.
So when I first started telling the truth about all the rampant sex abuse against me and others in our good Mormon family, and how the Mormon church covered it up for 2 generations of familial victims, I was certainly punished.
I was told I was “crazy, mentally ill disturbed, unstable, too emotional, is she on drugs?” And a Bad Girl, Unworthy.
Then, told I was evil, and that I was sinning for violating church rules about not respecting the male priesthood, which really means that men are not to be challenged or told on or doubted or held accountable or exposed for their abuses against women and children.
Then my mother took all the sex abuse drama on for herself, as though she was the victim, and made it into a trauma drama of her own about having to deal with a teenager with depression and PTSD which was so very taxing and unfair for her that she need 6 weeks in the hospital to cope with how awful it was for her. Pity her, she manipulated, look how tragic her life is, how she needs so much care and support, how heavily burdened she was because of her daughter’s sex abuse by her brother Ronald Oscar Safsten, born and raised in Bellingham, Washington.
Remember my earlier chapter on ex-husband Aaron Stewart Heusser of the Portland, Oregon area, terrorized me with violence and sadism and paranoid, angry control, isolating me, while being emotionally married to his mother.
When I became the truth teller of our marriage, he came at me with flying moving boxes at my head, yelling, “I’m gonna kill you, I’m gonna kill you…”
What made him stop and squeal his truck out of the garage was to reveal that my father was still listening on the cordless phone and heard the whole thing and was calling the police.
And when I got the Restraining Order on him in Washington County, Oregon, his response was to steal all my personal and business finances and block my access to them, all my personal records including birth certificates, taxes, my personal computer, my car keys, my insurance cards, checkbook, my money, everything.
Aaron Stewart Heusser, perfect modern male, perfect gentleman, perfect Mormon man, perfect women’s right’s BFF… And also the same person who left Borders bookstore early one Friday night because he, as he told me in the stacks, a little shaken but also asking permission for it to be okay, — he had become sexually aroused and had gotten an erection from looking through a coffee table art book on the grand masters of Early Europe and their paintings of nude little boys.
After the restraining order, he stalked me to intimidate me. To punish me further, refused to pay child support for 9 months, saying to me, in reply to the court order, “make me.”
Then enter get my bipolar drama queen Borderline Personality and addict sister, who just cannot resist the chance to escalate a drama no matter who gets hurt, who cannot resist meddling no matter how many professionals tell her stay out of it as she was making things worse, — buddied up with Aaron Huesser to carry his domestic violence into an unlawful, illegal, and sociopathic steal of child custody.
My sister’s name — the pea in the pod who supplied fabrications for Aaron to use, and committed a few unlawful acts along the way, some of which she still has in play, is Melanie Linnea Hansen Willer Silvester, formerly of Concord, California. Melanie markets herself successfully as the paragon of Mormon virtue, going so far as to throw crying tantrums and plather on judgmental lectures about others needing to get as righteous as she is or she will not be able to see them in heaven and she will be lonely there.
Lying, fabricating, conning, eagerly participating in Aaron’s prolonged domestic violence for her personl sport and addiction to drama? No matter the blatant lying, duplicity?
Melanie’s outer cosmetics represent the false store front of her soul which is filled with con jobs, exploitation of other’s personal lives and estranging/disrupting/stealing relationships to get her drama fix, then go to the temple and lie about being worthy to get inside, while going through 35 years of benzo and opiod addiction, fooling a lot of persons but not myself.
My punishment for truthtelling about all that?
Of course, the grandiose prophetic threat that I will not be able to go to heaven.
And more Borderline Personality games. Sordid, destructive games, that go on without accountability, empathy, remorse because Melanie, like Leif, like the Hawaii State Senator Diana Hansen-Young (sister, public artist), because all they have to do to get away with their criminal behavior is to, 1. See to it that I remain “crazy” while, 2. Manicure and advertise their cosmetic fronts of popularity, social-political ladder climbing, the power of fame, the power of money, the power of the con.
Again, readers who have or are experiencing the trauma of truthtelling, you are not alone.
Continue radical self-care, set and protect your boundaries, your privacy, your Self construct and believing in your Self as worthy and deserving a life free of abusers, confident in your own narrative, always bearing a courageous immovability in who you are and what you can do.
You are not alone. Talk with other truthtellers. You will find a community of remarkable and candid persons filled with the light of honesty, strength, wisdom, and perhaps some creativity and humor in coping and growing.
That is my wish and my work for you. So when I hear the duplicitous, con job radio-tv commercials of Leif Hansen of Leif’s Auto Collision Centers, and cringe because I know who he really is, I will draw strength because as long as there are truthtellers, no matter the punishments we endure, criminality in our families stands less of a chance.
Isn’t it nice not to be like them?
——————– by Heidi Hansen, from my new book, The Trauma Project, copyright2019-2020, reproduction prohibited.

































